A Note from A Recovering Perfectionist

I recently took a long break from all thing's social media and content creation (7 months to be exact). Initially, it was unintentional, but God began to work on different areas of my life that required isolation and reservation. I settled into what felt like "giving up on my purpose again" and experienced frustration, anger, discontent, and resentment towards the process. I struggled with feeling like I wasn't doing enough even though I had the roles of new puppy mom, new homeowner, new grad student at a new internship as a new therapist. Even with EVERYTHING NEW it still wasn't enough...to me.

Perfectionism and comparison to others had convinced me that something was missing instead of seeing what was being gained.

Has discontentment ever stopped you from enjoying the new?

All of us have been called by God to walk in purpose and share His light with others but the journey to get there does not require us to provide a perfect plan! We're just supposed to follows His. When we imagine, pray, journal, and assume what each season brings it leaves little room for adventure, surprises, and emotional- spiritual development in areas we did not even know we needed.

Looking back helps me understand why God has made pivots and changes to what I call "the perfect plan", and I realize that His ways and thoughts truly are higher than mine. I've grown in areas my soul knew it needed but I couldn't have seen on my own and I'm so thankful for everything that taught me to better (even the moments that hurt so bad).

This week I came back to sharing how God shows up in my life through blogging, YouTube, and creating curriculum. For those of you who have followed my journey for a while you know it has been a journey with many stops along the way. I used to view these as failures and things to be ashamed about because “why couldn’t I just do it and do it well?” but as I recover from perfectionism, comparison, and needing to know all of the details I find joy in the changes. It helps me know I don't have to have it all figured out and it's all working together for my good.

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As you reflect on this week, I hope you find yourself accepting grace, mercy, peaceful moments, and patience with your journey. I hope you know that every day with God is purposeful and perfect even when it differs from our own plan.

What is one area you need to give more credit to and release perfectionism?

I hope you’ll join me on this journey of blooming and becoming!

Sincerely,

Recovering Perfectionist